Wednesday, January 22, 2014

4 years without you

Today, 22 January 2014
marks 4 years since the passing of my beloved grandma.
We miss her dearly everyday.
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My grandma was special in every way. She made me smile everyday.
And she was always there for me, especially in my time of need.

She was the one I ran to, when I didn't know what to do.
And she was the one who was always there, when no one else seemed to care.

When I was down, she made me smile.
And that smile, lasted a while.

My grandma was not just my grandma, she was my best friend.
She was my heart, and the day she was gone, my world fell apart.
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You never said you're leaving, you never said goodbye.
You were gone before I knew it, and  only God knew why.

A million times I needed you, a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place that no one could ever fill.

It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone.
For part of me went with you, the day God took you home.

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It seems like yesterday, I talked to you and see you smiling from across the room.
Memories of you stays and never ever fade. I can still hear your soft voice whenever I think of you. She was patient and she would drop everything and would sit down and would be genuinely interested in what I had to say. No matter how petty the matter was. She always listened and knew what to say. Same goes when I was thousand miles away, I would call her just to hear her voice and her stories. We miss you every day, especially on special occasions like my wedding and the day I gave birth to my baby boy. 

Before her death, I always thought about how it would be to lose a beloved one.
I thought it would be hard on anyone to lose a family member but they say time can heal everything. Sad but as time goes by, things are going to get better.
Clearly they are wrong.

I wish I could describe her, imagine:
beauty, kindness, sweetness, pureness, care, love, strength, wisdom.
Mixed everything together, you'll get a full picture of my grandma.

Four years now, 
without your pretty face,
without your gorgeous smile,
without telling me you want to see me succeed,
without your prayers for me,
without any phone call from you,
without your hot gossips,
without you being there for me every time I feel bad about everything,
without asking me about my partner,
without your advice,
without you telling me that you want to witness my marriage before you die,
without you asking me about how my day went,
without you waving goodbye from the window.

What keeps me going is knowing that you're in a much better place,
a place where only happiness touches your heart. Allah loves you more.

Sadness is one thing, but we should all celebrate your life for you brought so much joy to people around you. We've suffered a great loss but shared so much love that will last forever. Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.

You will be missed dearly.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Hello There...

Hello 2014

I have been so busy with work and life, I literally have no time to write.
Hi we meet again.
We bid goodbye to 2013 and welcome 2014.
I have yet to write my 2013 highlights.
Wait for my next post. It's coming soon.
For now, I am so excited for my latest purchase to welcome the year.

which is..

A brand new spanking car to drive around!

So thankful and proud of myself for getting a car from my own pocket.
2014 will be a good year for me and my lil family. InsyaAllah.

Exactly a year ago, we welcomed a hybrid into our home.
Now we got this small and fast baby.
Hubby couldn't be happier for me. 
He is now obsessed with this ride (pls don't tell him) haha

Okay, back to work. Will continue in the next post!
See you and stay tuned k?